Another wave of fear passes over me. My body shakes. My teeth clench. My jaw aches. Here comes another wave. Quicker in coming than the last. And another. Heart pounding through my chest. Endless waves. Over and over. Waves of terror. Consume me. Footage of things I cannot change. On replay. On speed. The remote…

Would you like more kids? When are you going to have another? Surely you want a big family. She would make a great big sister. Questions that seems so innocent, part of everyday conversation. Asked by friends, family, strangers. One of many in the line of questions when you meet any mother. But for so…

You left me laying on a table, vacuuming my insides. My husband, my child taken away. Without a word of comfort. Without a word of care. Without telling me when I could see them again. Without explaining what was going on. I lay there in terror and confusion and sadness while you discussed The Bachelor….